BEING WITH YOU

Being with you

What if i cant have you
for always and forever
i want you more than anything
to love, to hold, to treasure

im afraid not to be with you
and im afraid to try
but most of all
im afraid to watch the days slip away, and die

what if its all lost tommorow
never to return?
a peice taken from my heart
a mark,a scar, a burn

i love to be around you
to hold you all of the time
it makes me feel like you need me,
like your truly mine

sweet little kisses
flirty little words
nick-names and playful games
ill never feel the same


i hate that i need to be with you
but i love it all the same
i love to look into your eyes
i smile when i hear your name


i cant help but feel that you need to be my all
ive waited for so long
i almost feel selfish
feeling about you so strong

what im trying to say is
i love you

SILENCE SO LOUD

Your silence is so loud. I've tried, to sift away, but the menace in my mind begs me to stay, and i'm left tumbling away, running out of room to breath around you. In the quiet words I said once upon a time and wondered where in the hell is my absent mind, but every time I’m left to wander. It's in your eyes, it says to me, "trust in me, but never get too close...” if you could break down my walls, and cradle my heart in the palm of your hand I surely would, I surely would be yours." So I take the advice, and change my ways, and think about what it means to be alive... if only for the moment i'm content and much obliged. I'd give my world to you inside of a cloth bag, and kiss the air around your head I wish to be close, but your silence is pushing me away. And you say "thanks for the stars, I know it means so much to a peddlar with such a poor fate.... but if you'd listen to these words, i've said enough without even lifting my tongue. Your kind and simple in many ways more than enough for a heart to long for, but your silence nowdays makes my mind shift, every word you utter now comes with uncertainties because to a loved one, busy schedule has can never be a reason to be silent." And I shudder in the cold today.

TOTAL BLISS

TOTAL BLISS.

My hand strokes fondly
those manly hands
that seem to tremble
under my eager fingers.
Quiet beginnings
slow and thoughtful
but the rhythm changes
as we accelerate.
Passions rise as my
breath quickens
there's no going back
as I tighten my grip.
‘I love you’ are the words you whisper
Then I say them back
As a smile fills your face
Yes, total bliss just you and me
And yes, I love you
I'm getting there
but not alone
as I push harder
and cross the line.

WHERE ARE YOU?

My Pillow gazes upon me at night
Empty as a gravestone;
I never thought it would be so bitter
To be alone,
Not to lie down asleep in your arms.

I lie alone in my silent house,
The hanging lamp darkened,
And gently stretch out my hands
To gather in yours,
And softly press my warm mouth
Toward you, and kiss myself, exhausted and weak-
Then suddenly I'm awake
And all around me the cold night grows still.
The star in the window shines clearly-
Where is the manly scent I am used to,
Where are you?

Now I drink pain in every delight
And poison in every wine;
I never knew it would be so bitter
To be alone,
Alone, without you.

And now with your today’s disappearing acts
Something goes amiss
I wonder what is this that occupies my mans mind
Talk to me, come to me, be with me
Because I cannot bare this loneliness

I MISSED YOU TODAY

trapped: I was really missing what we had today. I wont tell you that...I will just say it here. But I was thinking about us with fondness and it made me smile yet feel sad too. You make me smile at times without even knowing it.

I HAVE FOUND MY ENDLESS LOVE IN YOU

My love for you is an endless love.
Always, like an ocean waves, rolls over inside my heart
You are always in my heart and soul
and bridged the cap between the ocean
My time can not be limited for your love,
because I have endless love for you
Your love has a hold on me is magically beyond imagination
that brings me the most precious gift of love
I always think of you day and night
and can not be forgotten your sight that gives me pride
When my soul rapture as you embrace me
then my love travel like a ray of light in your heart
My heart and your soul are connected with strong love
and it makes us good ingredients of happiness
No words I can write and say, how much I miss you
and how much you are mean to me
Always, I want to share all my love with you
because I found in you my endless love.

YOU ARE MY TEDDY BEAR

TOGETHER FOREVER..

i remember the day we first met online
That sure was a day we'll never forget.

always stealing glances at you
taking my breath away

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I never thought we'd talk again,
Or ever become more than friends.

i bravely asked you why you never asked for my number
i thought maybe you were not interested in me
or you never found me charming
Maybe it was destiny, or was it fate?

Little did I know that we would fall in love,
You were sent to me from Heaven above.

You've stuck by my side through thick and thin,
To thank you so, I don't know where to begin.

I love you baby with all my heart,
"Together Forever" ~ we'll never part.

I love you sweetheart...
Today, Tomorrow, Always

ALL I WANT IS YOU.

You are driving me out of my mind

Insane I get every time I know you more

A part of life, a part of my life

I love you even more now that I have realized

Its just you and me against the world

Bonnie en Clyde baby

When I close my eyes

Am reminded of you

And the little joy

We both share.

I’m reminded of us

And the warm love

We both understand.

Give me that 1st kiss

And embraces that we both long for.

Just when

I close my eyes

Because when I open,

My thoughts are blanked with reality

Of the fact that

The distance separates us

When I see a wishing star

I’d wish to now the day ill die

So that I’d run to the open fields

Thank God for the life that I’ve lived

Then I’d run to you my love

Tell you that ill always love you

And ill always keep you close

In my heart.

I want you to be

The one you tell secrets that

No one else knows.

The one to share my warm laughs

The one i cries with.

The one everyone knows he is mine

And am his.

I love you Ed.

A LETTER FROM ME TO YOU

Dear love,

It is 1900hrs here and your thoughts clog my mind

Thinking of what you are doing

What you are thinking of?

Where you are, and with whom.

I think of you everyday

Every second that passes you are part of that thought

What is this that you do to me?

That I cannot thing of another?



You fill me up so well

That id forever want that feeling to last

Last forever in me.



I want you every time

I need you in my life Edwin

You would make me the happiest woman on earth

If you would be in my life



Yes, I want you for myself

Alone.

And no other

To build that world we say

Make it happen already.



They say time waits for no man

Yet it is a virtue

Well God time is sure the best

I ECHO THIS TO THEE TO LISTEN TO MY TODAYS PRAYER.

I love you so much Edwin.

Yours truly

Love,

PAROLE DE MON COEUR

Pouvons-nous tirer les ombres de nos rêves,
Suffocate toute folie irréfléchie,
Pour la nuit dernière la pensée de vous me tenait chaud,
Comme je désirais votre souffle sur ma peau,
Beaucoup sont contre nous
Mais ils ne comprennent pas notre étrangeté

Pourrions-nous, mais le changement le bras du destin
Exposer nos cœurs nus pour les faibles
Comment puis on verra?
Pour le poids de nos cœurs
Est-beared par deux.

Ainsi, même alors que le crépuscule s'efface,
Nos cœurs battent à l'unisson,
Sachant que notre espoir repose sur ce chuchotement
Le dernier mot que nous disons les uns aux autres.

SUNSET

The question of life ends,
The glow that cathes the eye,
The whisper,
She seems silent to many,
But to a few she talks.

Gazing at the beauty,
The glamour that changed i heart,

Perhaps scenary,
Yet it is but one,
One who shall find meaning in stupidity.

To you she is the sun,
To me the lover,
That keeps my heart occupied.

KUTANDA

Another evening,
A quiet one,
As he sails through the sunset,
Kutanda is miles away,
Yet his heart rejoices,
The battle only known to mad people,
The language that has no sound,

He beholds the moment,
Taking in every painful pinch,
That pinch of kutanda's absence

He wails aloud,
The voice that echoes with pride,
With desperacy,
The blowing wind of cause,
Finding its way into dying caves,

The reason to write,
To fill the void of loneliness,
For a stranger, the truth,
For kutanda,
His unfailing kutanda.
For she is but kutanda
The kutanda of his life.

THOUGHTS

Bewildered guest to inner silence,
Silence colorful like a rainbow in rain,
Raindrops sound like wind kissing the earth,
Earth crying, her lips kissed in vain
Who knows what it means having no teeth
For yesterday the sky deeped his tongue down her throat
A memory known to the invisible moment.